So close yet sooooo far away...

I have been working with doctors and nutritionist for about 6 months now. That is when I decided that I needed to have this surgery. My insurance covers it but in order for them cover it I have to qualify through some prerequisites. These were the things I had to do before they will authorize the operation:

• Have a BMI of 41 or higher - I was, according to their charts, at a 42. check
• Have a co-morbid disease - I have diabetes. check 
• Show a record of trying to lose weight for at least a year - I have been trying for about 3 years now but only had documents of actually trying via doctors for 6 months, so that combined with what I have done the past 6 months makes it a complete year of documentation.  check
• See a nutritionist for 6 months. This month made 6 for me :). check
• See a psychiatrist to make sure I'm not crazy and will comply with any special programs and diets that I will be on post surgery. - Last week I saw one and I have to go back for him to administer the written tests to me. halfway check
• See my doctor for every month for 6 months to track weightloss progress and diabetes management pre-surgery. check

So, for the most part, I have done every thing that I have needed to do. I am pretty much just waiting on this psychiatrist to give me the written tests and submit his suggestions to the doctor and then have my doctor submit all my paperwork to my insurance and then I can get approved. My surgery doctor says that I am so close and that I can probably plan on having surgery some time in July. That is like...tomorrow!!!! I'm so nervous and anxious and excited and scared...all at once. I have a nagging fear that my insurance will not cover it. It's been nagging at me since I have decided to get the surgery. I told my husband that if I don't get approved that he's paying for the damn surgery. LOL. But in real life... I have had my heart set on this surgery for 6 months now and I WILL get it, by any means necessary, I'm just hoping it will be with the insurance's means instead of my own. HA!

I am camping by my phone and waiting, waiting, waiting for my psychiatrist to call me back. He said that he had to get the tests authorized through my insurance before he can give it to me. It was just barely on Thursday that I saw him and it's only Sunday today. I guess I should give him some time to get a hold of my insurance and get that together...I'm just sooooooo antsy!!! I feel soooooooooo close, yet soooooooo far away. I guess when I get approved and set an actual date is when I will feel complete and really good about this really getting done. My doctor says not to worry that I am a shoe in for this procedure and that he will do what ever he needs to help me get approved for it but for now I will just wait and pray.